My Story part 3

TALE OF THE FOUR BRIDES

My Story part 3

I went alone to that Christmas Banquet on December 12th 2008. 
I walked in alone and some girls came over to ask me to sit with them, I was relieved until I realized the only available table had me sitting apart from them.
I had to sit alone. 
I remember thinking..."oh well guess I'll just enjoy the food..." 
And then I heard "Mind if I sit with you?" 


It was Justin. And I said yes. 




We talked during the entire banquet. We talked about God's leading in our lives, our interests, even our hopes for the future. It was a wonderful night. I remember after leaving the banquet and going home I kept wondering what was going to happen next....


The following week Justin left for Christmas break. I didn't see him or talk to him for a whole month. 
It was the LONGEST month of my life! 
"What if he comes back....and he never talks to me again?"
"What if he comes back...and we do talk again?" 
"What if he doesn't come back at all??"


I prayed and prayed that whole month. I was so scared! I liked him. I wanted him to like me too!! 







The Sunday of the end of Christmas break had arrived, and the college students were returning that morning. 
My mind was busy with wondering what would happen when and if I saw Justin.... what should I do? What should I say? I finally decided that if Justin was interested in me I would let him make the first move. 


I arrived at the Sunday school class and scanned the room after I sat down. Justin was there. My heart was pounding. After we were dismissed I left the classroom. A few minutes later he was right beside me talking away about his Christmas. 


We kept talking....and in a few months we had officially started courting. It was so amazing! 



I could hardly believe that I had found a godly man, one who loved me so deeply, and thought I was gorgeous.  I was so thankful and surprised!! I had honestly thought that no one would fall in love with me!! I was so happy to be wrong! As our relationship grew I would often pray and ask God to bless us, and to show us what His will was for our courtship. 



I still struggled from time to time about my weight, and how Justin could love me when I "looked like this" and he would assure me over and over again the he LOVED me the way I was and that I was beautiful to him. 
My feelings of inadequacy began to slowly lessen. 






I know appearance and being beautiful  isn't the most important thing in the whole world. 
But God made us to desire and enjoy beauty. Every girl wants to be beautiful for her special man. And the right man will think her so, and tell her so!! 
But being beautiful or handsome isn't everything. I sought for a man who was godly, and wanted to live his life serving the Lord, and I found that man!!





A year and a half later, my wonderful boyfriend proposed! 


And a year and a half later from the proposal I married Justin, God's perfect will for my life! Our wedding day was perfect, and so amazing! I am so thankful I waited for God's best for a man, and that He gave me a man who truly loved me!!












Once in a great while I will still feel "not pretty" but Justin always fixes that attitude!! :) 
I am so thankful for my husband's love and for his sweetness to me! 


I am also thankful that I waited for Justin, and that I chose to trust the Lord for the perfect husband for me! 





When I started writing out my story for "The Tale of the Four Brides" series, I thought of so many different parts of my courtship and what my theme should be, I realized that my struggles with my appearance might be a blessing to other girls who struggle with those same feelings! I hope I was a blessing to you!! 



   


God bless, 
~Rebecca

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