I have a prayer request to share with you, my awesome Grandpa is currently in ICU after complaining about chest pains. My Grandma took him to the ER last night and he was admitted due to very low blood pressure. My Grandpa is diabetic and has been on dialysis for over 6 months now.
Grandpa B. is my mom's father. He is 83 years old and quite the character. Please pray that he will recover / doctors figure out why he has chest pains.
Due to complications my grandpa will be having open heart surgery and have a bypass done. He has coronary heart disease and at risk for a heart attack Please pray!
********************************************************************** Update 3/21/15 My grandfather's open heart surgery is scheduled for Monday morning. He will be staying in the hospital over the weekend, as he has had two minor heart attacks in the past few days. Please pray that the surgery goes smoothly and that he heals quickly with no complications.
The snow is starting to melt, the birds are starting to sing and....
the stomach bugs are going around :(
Yes, Justin and I had the stomach bug last week. It was a long and miserable week but we are both on the mend now. It is so nice to not have a fever, and to not be afraid to eat something as simple as dry toast! The photo above was during my turn with the fever. At least Justin and I retained our sense of humor. We got alot of snuggling in during the recovery and fever stages. We even watched The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh at 12am one night. That was fun. :)
Now that we are mostly recovered we are starting spring cleaning. We have gotten nasty wood / wolf spiders in our apartment EVERY April since we moved in and let me tell you- those things are big, fast and creepy. This year we are trying to get ahead of those little stinkers and spray everywhere. I have found spiders IN MY BED more than once so I am super paranoid right now. I hope we can head them off.
Last year I freaked out so bad after finding two on my blanket that I froze in fear. I literally could not move. :(
I used to be ok with spiders but I dunno- after finding them in my bed.... nope. That is my sanctuary!! They can stay outside where they belong, thank you very much!
Good news: I have finally been able to start doing daily devotions again. I have struggled with devotions for a while now. It was a mixture of anxiety and feeling upset with my health problems. I don't feel ready yet to go into all the reasons that I had trouble- someday I will. Thankfully our very loving Pastor and his wife have made a huge difference in helping me get over the anxiety. I have done devotions everyday for 1 week with NO panic attacks which is a HUGE deal. Please pray I don't quit again / no anxiety.
It is really hard for me to admit that I struggle with something as basic as devotions- But I feel I should be transparent about it. I'm just as human and flawed as anyone. Maybe this will be an encouragement to someone else. I certainly hope so!
I didn't intend to take a hiatus but with my Aunt's passing I didn't really feel like blogging much, and then Justin came down with the flu. I have been meaning to update on here but time just passed on by!
The funeral was very emotional for my family and for my Aunt's family. However it was also a very beautiful celebration of her life. Being born with a heart condition always meant that Aunt Pam's health would always be fragile. There were many times she almost passed away but God pulled her through. In 1997 it seemed like we were certainly going to lose her when God provided a much needed heart transplant. That heart allowed her 18 more years with us. People who receive heart transplant rarely make it past 15 years after the surgery, so we were VERY blessed that God let us have her in our lives for so long.
My mother is taking this loss very hard, Pam was her best friend and the sister she never had. I am doing my best to comfort my mom but I know there is not much I can do. I pray and hope that she can grieve and find some peace.
Justin is still on the mend. Your prayers are appreciated.
A very special woman in my life passed away a few days ago.
I have lost a few loved ones over the years, but it is still always so hard to say good-bye. Saying goodbye to my Aunt Pam has been hard.
Pam was born with a heart defect and had many open heart surgeries before she was even a teen. She met my mom in the early 90s after my parents started attending the church. Our families quickly grew close. In 1997 she received a much needed heart transplant. There were a few complications along the way, but the new heart gave her a new lease on life. She wanted to see their adopted son Mark graduate high school, and she did. She also saw him graduate college, and was able to attend my wedding. I am so thankful she was able to share these moments with her family and with us.
Aunt Pam was a big part of my childhood, and helped mold who I am today.
Because we could never pronounce her long last name when I was little my brothers and sisters and I called her "Aunt Pam". She may not have been my biological aunt but she and her husband treated us kids as their family.
I feel like a huge part of my childhood is gone now. I know I still I still have all the memories and all the little gifts and cards from her. I know I still have photos and emails. But it feels as though I've lost something from myself that can never be replaced.
I'm not sure yet how I feel about knowing she is gone. Part of me is sad, but part of me is happy she isn't suffering with the pain and complications with her health anymore. Part of me doesn't get that my Auntie is really truly gone. They had moved out of state years ago so I don't get a sense of severe physical loss yet. But I see her name in my contact list on my cell and I know that there is no longer going to be any texts from her. I just got an email from her a few weeks ago too, and now there will be no more emails. I haven't been able to have a good break down cry yet... and that bothers me a bit. I have teared up a few times though. I think it may take some time. I know everyone grieves differently. For now I just feel empty.
Please pray for Aunt Pam's husband Kurt and their son Mark. And please pray for my mom, Pam was the sister she never had and I know how hard this loss is on my mom.
Pam wrote a guest post for my wedding blog last year- I highly encourage you to read about her life in her own words. Part 1 and part 2
I will miss you Auntie Pam, thankyou for being in my life and for all the love you gave to me. Love your niece, Rebecca